Tuesday, June 8, 2010
ho hum
So over the last month... not much has changed. I had my first Mothers Day. I spent it painting the house. Clint and Sadie got me gorgeous flowers, a food processor (to make Sadie's baby food), and a seal and save system or something like that. It's one of those that sucks all the air out and is suppose to keep a steak 'fresh' for something crazy like 5 years. We won't be testing that. It was a good day all in all.
I had kind of a low point a couple weeks ago. Just bummed about being here and not in Des Moines. I still haven't really met any friends, I am not a big fan of my new job, and I feel horrible when I have to wake my sleeping baby up in the morning to drop her off for 13 hours for someone else to take care of. My wonderful husband called my parents and had them come down for the weekend to cheer me up. It helped! They hadn't both been here since she was born and that was just a day trip to the hospital and the last couple times we had been in Des Moines I had spent hardly any time with them. I keep trying to keep my chin up but most days I just decide if I can make it through today that's a good day. Sadie and Clint keep my spirits up. There is nothing better then the love of your husband and child.
Clint's territory has been expanded. He is now in charge of all of Western Missouri. It's good experience for him but it means he is gone more and even busier when he is at home. I long for the day he doesn't have to answer his phone at dinner and can spend the evening just hanging out instead of in the basement working. I keep telling myself it will be worth it. He enjoys his job so that makes it worth it.
So my job. Yep, stinks. I was kind of told I was going to a cardiac floor and I kind of am on a medical floor with telemetry (heart monitoring). We occasionally have cardiac patients but most of the patients I see are old news to me. Definitely not the learning experience I was hoping for. So this means I am counting down the days until I can leave. I have already been applying to Labor & Delivery and Postpartum as the have day shifts open. The chance of transferring to another area is slim to none as we are supposed to be in our current position for 6 months before we can switch. My manager is very unorganized and has made it quite apparent that my being there doesn't matter. She doesn't return emails. I am not set up for access to things I should be. The one time I attempted to discuss my frustrations of my orientation with her she was defensive and made excuses for most everything I had to say. Bottom line. I'm not happy and I will be leaving when I find something else.
The dogs are doing good. They are much happier here then they were in Des Moines but are obviously feeling neglected now that Sadie is here. They are no longer allowed on the furniture and they don't sleep in bed anymore which I think is hard for them. They mind very well though and rarely attempt to get up on anything. They seem to handle having a baby around pretty good. Geordie is much more interested then Payton but Payton is warming up to her.
Sadie is awesome. We had her 4 month appointment today. She is 13lbs 7oz! She had a huge growth spurt in the last 2 weeks. Putting her back on track with other kiddos her age! We had round 2 of shots which went okay. I took her by my self and was so worried but she calmed down pretty quick and I sat in the waiting room and gave her a bottle a rocked her to sleep before we left. She is rolling both ways now and is scooting toward toys. She chews on everything and is a drool machine! We started cereal last week. She still has quite the tongue thrust but gets about 50% of it down. She is sitting with assistance from her boppy pillow and loves her exersaucer! She gets so excited when she gets it to sing to her! We finally put away the rest of the newborn clothes about 2 weeks ago! Oh and I stopped pumping. It became too much of a hassle and was so time consuming. I stopped pumping a couple weeks ago. It became too much of a hassle and was so time consuming. Now I have more time to spend with her. I pumped enough for her to have a bottle a day for a month so that's a bonus. I just love watching her grow and develop. She is definitely the bright spot in my life! I am so thankful for her!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Sadie's first baseball game
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Can you tell I went back to work?!
This brings up that Sadie will be starting daycare this week. BIG TEAR! I am trying so hard to be strong about this and realize it had to happen sometime. Inside I am completely torn up and just want to bawl because I don't want to leave her with someone that isn't family. Miss Amber is very nice and we like her but she just isn't mommy or daddy or grandma or anyone else I have let watch her so far. I have the joy of dropping her off tomorrow morning and am worried about being able to pull myself away and walk out the door. I can and I will I just don't want to. I hope Clint can get there early to pick her up.
So Sadie is almost 10 weeks old. WOW! Time is flying by. She is so much more alert. She sleeps through the night some times but usually is still up once. She is great at focusing and following movement. She is working on grasping things as she just bats at her toys a lot right now. She rolled over last week... sure we tucked her arm under for her but she did it! She is just a joy to have in our lives and we thank God for her each and every day. We love being parents!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
6 & 7 weeks
Sadie is growing like a weed. I weighed her with me on our scale here at home last week and she came in between 8 1/2 to 9 lbs. I don't know how accurate the scale is since the number changes each time we get off and on but I'm guessing that's about right by the way she feels. We have her 2 month, yes you read that right, 2 month appointment next Friday so I will know for sure then. She has gotten much longer also. I had to put away a lot of her newborn stuff because she was too long for it. It's perfect around but she can't straighten out her legs so a lot had to go. The 0-3m stuff is HUGE on her so we have very few outfits she can wear out these days. We also started in on size 1 diapers. These also are HUGE! I have to fold them down quite aways but they hold much more and she was getting to the point we had to change her immediately or else there was trouble in the newborn size. She had is starting to smile more consistently. Her first smile was on her 6 weeks 'bday'. She is tracking and focusing well and starting to coo. She is very strong and has great head and neck control. She can turn from side to side and hold it up for long periods now. I love watching her grow and see her meet new milestones but it tugs at my heart a bit at the same time. My little girl is growing so fast! Here is a couple 6 week pictures.
Clint and I have been trying to find a childcare provider for Sadie. We are lucky that right now Clint can take her at night and our moms have/ will come down to help at first. It's nice for them to be able to come spend time with her... and us. We have a few options for who we could use but haven't made a decision yet. I have another lady to interview hopefully tomorrow. She lives directly behind the hospital so I am hoping it works out. It is so hard to find some one that we feel comfortable with. I never thought I would have this much trouble with going back to work. Things really change once they are here though.
We are learning a few new ways to do things to...
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Happy St Patricks Day!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Happy 1 month Sadie!
We had the FMH Annual meeting last weekend. We were in Des Moines from Friday to Monday. It was great to see everyone, spend time with friends and family and get to introduce them Sadie but man was it exhausting! We were totally off our schedule... which we are now paying for big time. And I get to go back this weekend for a couple days. I am super excited for the shower and to see everyone but I am not looking forward to being off our schedule and running all over heck like a mad women trying to see everyone and do everything. Clint isn't coming with so I want to try to go up on Friday morning and come back Saturday night. We haven't really had an us weekend since we brought Sadie home so I want to try to get back and spend time together as a family. Clint will have to be gone her in a couple weeks for 3 weeks (home on weekends) and I go back to work at the end of the month so our free time is quickly running out. Man I wish I could have taken 12 weeks. Oh well, gotta provide a college education for this little lady!
Clint shaved his head at the annual meeting along with about 15 other guys. They all did this in support of a 13 year old daughter of one of Clint's co workers who was diagnosed with synovial sarcoma (cancer) last fall. She is undergoing very intense treatment right now. We are praying for her and her family for the best outcome. I don't know her personally but I read her blog and she is such an amazing young lady. She has a good head on her shoulders and a heart of gold. I pray she beats this beast.
FMH employees and family raised over $16,000 for this family in one night. It was amazing to see so many people's generosity and support. Even some of the top guys in the company took part even though they didn't want to shave their heads. It wasn't about them, it was about helping out another 'family' member. I am so proud of FMH employees and families!
Monday, March 8, 2010
Readmitted...
To top things off this whole infection and being sick in general shot my milk supply. In the hospital I was lucky to get an ounce total. Now that I am home I can get 2.5-3 ounces every 3 hours but that is just not enough for Sadie so we have had to result to formula. Now the poor peanut is getting constipated and she makes faces and tries not to eat when she gets the formula. I keep pumping and drinking water and Mother's Milk tea to try to get my supply up but I am worried that Sadie may end up having to be a formula baby. That's hard for me. I really wanted to be able to provide her with the natural diet God intended her to have. I know everything happens for a reason but it is hard for me to not think I am letting her down. At least she is eating and I am getting some milk so she is not completely on formula. I will keep praying my supply goes up and I can switch her back to all breastmilk.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Pictures from the last couple weeks...
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
2 weeks down
We have had a great 2nd week! Sadie is growing and is still such a great baby. She's having some problems figuring out her nights and days but seeing as I worked nights before she was born I can't say I am too surprised. She lost her umbilical cord on Friday night last week... poor Clint was changing a middle of the night diaper and wasn't quite sure what happened at first. Her little belly button is so adorable! I just love holding her and watching her. She is such a beautiful baby and it still amazes me that she is our child and that I 'grew' her. It just amazes me what the human body is capable of!
She had her 2 week appointment today and Dr Sullivan said she's doing great and is a perfect baby... like he had to tell me that! She is back to her birth weight of 6lbs 9oz putting her in the 7th percentile. She is supposedly 20 1/4 inches putting her in the 51st percentile but I am not so sure how much I agree with that measurement since her head wasn't at the top of the measuring stick. Her head is now 14 inches around which is the 40th percentile. Dr Sullivan's office is big on reading to kids at an early age so they give out books at well child exams. The one we received today is aimed more for the parents and what is appropriate for each age.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
1 week old already?!
Monday, February 15, 2010
She's up!
And it has... no more heel sticks for now!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Happy Valentines Day!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Sadie Renee Meek
Here is a brief Labor & Delivery story...
2/8/10 Admitted to start cervidil for the night... see previous post.
2/9/10
Pitocin started at 6am
Water broken at 9am
Monday, February 8, 2010
Sadie is coming tomorrow...
So as I sit here in my hospital bed thinking of all the things I was going to do and didn't and all the things I probably should have done and never got around to, I remind myself of how lucky we are. We will make it to 37 weeks and we will have our precious little baby to hold in our arms and snuggle and love. She will be happy and healthy and Clint and I will get to be parents. We have looked forward to this for so long and are so excited the time is almost here. It doesn't matter if there is an extra load of laundry that didn't get done or floors that didn't get swept. Our baby is coming... and she will get her safely. Mommy and Daddy love you Sadie. We are so excited to finally get to meet you tomorrow!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Sadie's Room just a few pictures...
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Bedrest = Boring
Friday, January 29, 2010
35/35, baby shower, & show choir!
In other news, I had my first baby shower over the weekend. It was so much fun to see everyone and catch up! Dani & Joanna did a great job. Miss Sadie is lucky to have so many people that love her so much already! Her room actually has things in it now! I ordered a few things we needed for right away to get it finished enough to use at least. I can't wait for the next baby shower when I will have her with me to show off and meet everyone!
Clint & I were also lucky enough to be able to see our siblings perform in their show choir groups last Saturday. They are both amazing and we are so thankful we were able to go. They are both seniors this year so we wanted to make sure we saw one more performance before they graduate.
Jenna
Andrew